So I’ve noticed that even though my blog is a personal place to spill out all my thoughts and feelings and emotions, as a result it has also reflected a lot of the dark moments and worries that pass through my head. Today’s post is about taking it back to what the whole point was of starting this whole blog, which was the intention of focusing on happiness and the journey to it- which brings up gratitude, a neighbor of happiness.
- The obvious basic: The obvious basic things I have to appreciate living in a developed country is that I am never starving, always have food to go for when I’m hungry, and that I always have a roof over my head with a comfy room. All my loved friends and family are still alive, especially my parents, who do so much for me. They support me through my illness, support me financially in terms of living expenses and anything else I need, like paying for medication, picking up my medication, and dropping it off for me right away. They bought me my laptop and my android phone in the recent years. I get to keep myself clean and well-groomed with hot showers and baths which are especially useful when I feel low.
- The materialistic: Even though yes, studies show that experiences and meaningful relationships matter a lot in relativity to happiness, the second thing I have to list in terms of gratitude is more materialistic. I don’t desperately need anything (besides my health lol), but there were a couple things I had on my wish list, and I honestly didn’t expect to seriously get any of those things this year. However, I got most of them, either gifted by yours truly (to self lol), or by friends and family. First off, my first pair of Adidas Ultraboost! (Stella McCartney in clay red) in size 4.5, on sale and notified to me by one of my friends. I was given a pair of red Beats headphones by generous friends who claimed they didn’t have any use for it. Third off, this Nordstrom leather jacket I’d been pining after for about two years- it was finally on sale during Black Friday and I saved over $100, although it was still quite pricey. I bought myself all the Yesstyle products I had in my favorites just as an impulse buy, and these included a Gudetama make up sponge, a cover up mask, a Shu Uemura eyelash curler, charcoal toothpaste, etc. #Treatyoself I also received A+ class chocolate and the most amazing German mug ever from my childhood best friends. This mug was my favorite at my neighbor’s house because it’s thin, tiny, and curves outward, which makes pouring and drinking so much easier and funner! I also received more gifts surprisingly. My two friends bought me a portable white noise sound machine and a wine red laptop sleeve I’d been wanting to protect my Mac with! These were on my wish list, and I honestly did not even remember sharing the list. My mom’s friend also dropped off a LADY M crepe cake!! Holy moly, those cost $90, I looked it up. So excited to eat it. Also, I still have my college secret santa gift to look forward to. But finally, most precious of all, is that my parents came home last week WITH A PUPPY!!! My mom fell in love with a schnoodle who is heterochromatic. She looks like a hybrid between a dragon, bat, rabbit, and alpaca. Her name is Moonchie and she is a feisty one ^_^
- Miscellaneous: We’re going on a Disney trip soon, and even though there are many things to be worried about, the bottom line is I’ll finally get to try butter beer and see The Wizarding World of Harry Potter omg. I also feel like I have somewhat of a grip on what my goals are, and I’ve outlined them for each day. Just a lot of self-improvement, self-exploration, even as I’m stuck at home. Learn to focus on acceptance of self, being less jealous of others, staying hungry and mindful of said goals. Trying to make the best of it with my time and opportunities to quietly work on SQL, R, Python, and also this International Humanitarian Law course I found on Coursera. Datacamp is also this wonderful source I found. I want to work in data science or analytics! There’s so much to learn, but I actually find it pretty fun to solve each example. I also borrowed some books to read at home that will hopefully give me some fictional fun as well as knowledge. In terms of other issues I’m passionate about, Asian representation is actually existing a tiny bit more these days. Mindy Kaling and Awkwafina are both cast in Ocean’s 8, Jay Park got recruited into Rocnation, and BTS is making waves in the music industry by performing at the AMAs and collabing with other huge artists!
I have so much. Even though most of the time I can’t seem to be able to make myself look at the positives, right now I feel as satisfied and full as the feeling you get after you stuff yourself with a huge meal + dessert. Preferably pumpkin pie a la mode. Or Lady M OHOHO.