I find that I don’t click well with people who have their heads so far up their ass and are so far stuck up their little bubble that they don’t see anything else outside of it.
Aren’t you curious about the rest of the world and how they live their lives? That’s the only way to pursue truth, to open your eyes and really grow as an individual, to humble yourself. To understand other people’s way of life and beliefs, and have a greater appreciation for your own, and to fully understand what privilege or lack of it is. That’s why it’s always so surprising to come across someone unbelievably ignorant.
That was a bit harsher than I intended. I guess what I’m trying to say is that while I wish I could have the means to travel all over the world and learn about other people’s experiences and culture and way of life, I have been lucky. Despite all the issues, my parents have always made it a point to try to travel to other places to see and absorb and learn, and I realize I am fortunate because of that.
My friend came back from Ethiopia recently and was generous enough to give me some pre-mixed shiro-bebere powder that her coworkers gave her. It was amazing because I know I’ll probably never have the chance to visit Ethiopia, but making it and having it for dinner was a unique and exciting experience. I was thinking what, puree onions and tomato? Who does that? Ethiopia does. And it’s freaking delicious. And it was obviously more authentic too because a native Ethiopian made the mix.
We made a trip to the Indian grocery store and I got so excited by things like their roti, badam, and of course, bru (instant coffee. TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THE DIVERSITY IN AMERICA. EAT ALL THE FOOD.
- My friends and I were planning our next upcoming get together, which would be a bit more venturing and walking. I was a bit worried that I might get exhausted. My friends said they would be happy to push me around in a wheelchair so I could save my energy.
- My friend told me I would be one of her bridesmaids when she gets married. I didn’t realize how happy that would make me when I heard it. ❤
I had gone through a phase a few months ago of “I can do this!” planning to work out every couple days. That only lasted for about three-four weeks, and then it got cold or something and I fell off the wagon, unmotivated and sinking into a bit of depression on my limitations. The physical limitations really do weigh on your mental health. Misery can be a constant companion, but you gotta remember to reach for your other friend too, perseverance. Consistency… whatever it is, I need more of it. I need to get on my own ass regarding my goals that I wrote in my previous post. I want to transform my chicken legs and get some abs, just become fitter and lose 3 pounds. Will stop just saying, must do too.
Must not let depression, limitations, and other people’s problems stop me. It’s all noise.
Today’s Favorite Songs:
Empty- Olivia O’Brien
“I wonder if I’m good enough… pretend there’s no tomorrow…. I wish there’s no tomorrow. But I’m empty inside x2, I just don’t feel alive, and I don’t want to live but I’m too scared to die”
Pursuit of Happiness – Kid Cudi