I am officially 26! … I have graduated from the bracket of age 18-24, occasionally 18-25. Apparently I’m not truly “old” or in my “late 20s” until I’m 27.
I feel really lucky to have wonderful family and friends to make me feel loved. Even though one could argue that my quality of life has gotten worse, that is only physically. Mentally, I’ve become stronger, not without the help of therapy. My perspective on life has changed, and I’ve grown more hopeful and better enough to fight for a future that could improve my possibilities of things I could experience, a life that I had only imagined since I’d grown up. I’d be able to run, hang out with friends an entire day without feeling exhausted, I’d never feel short of breath again from walking a couple blocks or walking up stairs, and I’d never have to feel that dizzy, wobbly, bursted feeling whenever I did try to push that boundary.
I was pretty satisfied with a casual hangout with my college friends last weekend, and determined to enjoy the present for all the happiness it offered. I kept getting expected and unexpected love, which included 3 delicious cakes, two books, a Nintendo Switch, a Nordstrom gift card, a heated blanket, balloons, and a lovely Cajun style seafood dinner with family.
My heart is full, and all these memories just remind me not to take anything for granted, and to keep trying my best for an optimal future with the people who matter most.
P.S. Got another last minute visit from my friend and her baby today (Tuesday)! He is growing up so fast, this is my first time seeing a baby every couple months, and it’s crazy to me how quickly he picks up things and how beautiful of a child he is. I also have firsthand appreciation of a mother’s full-time work in looking after another human being. They gave me an orchid plant and another birthday balloon! Whoo-hoo. For reals, most of my life I was bitter and resentful of anyone who I thought was a friend but ended up not being there for me. It may be because of my change in perspective, but all I feel is joy in mattering in other people’s lives, and that I have friends who offer to drive me to UPenn at all touches me. We don’t know if we have another minute, day, week, years, or a lifetime to spend with our loved ones. I’d always been on a rush to live as fully as possible whenever my body allowed me, and it only makes me more determined to live longer and healthier because now I have fully understood the meaning of life and my place on this earth, and I will not take it for granted if I had a second chance.