I have to say, this is probably the second best vacation I’ve ever been on: I had the best solid sleep I’ve had in about two years last night, and everything is going well. I had proper rest, we live in a great hotel, the weather is perfect, and we got to see the second half of Harry Potter Diagon Alley in Universal Studios today – I think I can add today as the fourth happiest memory I’ve had, with the first being in Taiwan with study abroad friends, the second being throwing a surprise party with kids for my co-counselor, and the third being sitting on a gondola in Venice.
I guess part of what makes it so happy too is going through what feels like hopeless hell, everything going wrong. Today, everything went smoothly and right, which is rare. No regretful feelings, we got to do pretty much everything. I had a solid 9 hours of sleep, we woke up at 8am to get to the park, and rode every ride and saw every inch of Harry Potter World (besides the Hogwarts train but it’s seriously ok cause the rest of it was that awesome), I got Florean Fortescue’s strawberry-peanut butter ice cream, got my Gryffindor quidditch shirt in kid’s size, got my Hogwarts keychain that I regretted not buying the first day, my mom got her turkey legs, we saw the Mardi Gras parade AND managed to squeeze in E.T. in the last two minutes of the day. We took a few pictures at the exit and I felt confident to take a photo in my wheelchair. Yes, my wheelchair.
I dreaded this wheelchair forever, and the first day I rode it I had moments where I felt like my life was falling apart and I was becoming an even more useless, dependent person. I brought not much joy due to my depression to others, I was physically weak and easily fatigued, I did not even bring much income in, I felt like I could barely help myself: I felt worthless. And truth is, I will probably feel frustrated by all the limitations again many, many times over, but I realize that accepting the help of using a wheelchair made my quality of life 10x better. I was no longer so fatigued and uncomfortable that I could not properly enjoy whatever we were doing, and as the second day, I got used to stares more and even stared back happily. I guess it’s still different since I don’t know anyone personally here, so I feel somewhat less self-conscious. Props to my parents for wheeling me around all day, I am amazed at how fast regular people walk without tiring! The speed they go at is like a mild superhero speed compared to my own. It saved us a lot of time too not to have to rest every other minute.
I have to say, to date I highly enjoyed both Harry Potter rides, I also enjoyed the Jimmy Fallon ride, Transformers, and the Incredible Hulk were the highlights. The amount of blessed feelings and happiness I experienced in 4 days so far seems to make up for how shitty I’ve felt the rest of the past year. To simply be able to accomplish more than I can brings me great elation and then I feel very satisfied and full. I’d rather have one great vacation than 2 shitty ones where I feel sick the whole time. Wheeee. ^_^
Here’s to hoping the last day is a solid one as well. I can probably live off this good vibes week for quite awhile, maybe it’ll last me till spring? Fingers crossed.