I’ve started my second week of work, and I remember thinking of my last job and how excited I was just to have a job and be healthy enough to go to work everyday. After a couple months though, the excitement wore off and the work became mundane- I felt restless and uninspired, not to mention the weather got colder and more difficult for me.
I had this thought at the end of last week that it seemed I was nearing the end of my training and picking up most of what I could pick up at this job and place, but I really hoped that wasn’t the case. Thankfully, I think I still have a lot to learn, and if I do well and still last here 3-6 months later, maybe I’ll get a raise or they’ll consider moving me to another higher position in data. Ideally, my image of “making it” career-wise would be to climb up the ladder in terms of data analyst, then data scientist, of which the avg annual income is ~$100,000. Even though money isn’t everything, it would definitely be one less thing to worry about and would make life a little easier. My hospital stay for just 8 days last year ended up costing ~$50,000… I don’t know how people are supposed to survive and pay that without insurance in America. Definitely a huge problem. It’s inhumane not to provide people with the basic ability of maintaining their health and welfare.
I’m glad that compared to certain peak times of my life, these past months I haven’t had to visit doctors an incredible amount- I have to take off once a month so far, and I try really hard to book my appointments for other things after my work ends, which is possible because it’s part-time. As I grow older, I become more and more aware of spending money practically, and investing in things I need. Really need. Like work clothes. What I WANT are a nice new pair of bose headphones and for my mac computer to have sound again, but so far, I am living life fine without either. Shout out to you Sean if you’re reading this lmao because I use bluetooth on the sleep machine to get sound when I connect it to the laptop 😀
So what I want to be thankful for now, and what I have to keep reminding myself when I start to feel bored or annoyed that I have to go to work, is that it is a blessing to have the ability to have a job and to make it there everyday. I remember those cold winter months where I had really bad winter blues and was alone and so frustrated that I was just full-time sick, watching everyone else simply have opportunities to hit their goals. I don’t need anyone to hand anything to me, I just want the opportunity to earn it. Because now that I am not down with the flu/cold or my lungs are fucking with me and I can manage my current job so far, I feel confident that I have the drive and the ability to learn and make it to where I want to be. As long as life doesn’t throw more shit at me (which I know it will), I can do it. And that is one of the biggest leg ups I have over my competition. I know what it’s like to simply not be able to try. When you’ve never known what it’s like to have a chance feel like it’s completely robbed from you, you don’t know anything else except to take it for granted.
I know I’m not earning that much right now. But it’s a step above not having the ability to earn anything at all. And even if I get fired now, I already picked up so much on the corporate world in one week, and other random technical jumbo I never thought twice about that impact our lives very much, that it’s okay: I know it wasn’t a waste of time. Absorbing knowledge is great 😀 I’m starting to migrate towards analyzing real work this week in their many Excel sheets… my biggest wish is that the learning doesn’t stop here and I’m not stuck doing this for weeks on end, or for the rest of my position there. Give me a chance to prove what I can bring when illness doesn’t prevent me, and I will kick ass.