Letting go of pride. A lot of self-care and confidence is reframing how you feel about yourself, and letting go of pride enough to realize that you can still retain your dignity even when you feel you’ve lost it. As much as I tell others that sharing and revealing a part of your soul makes you feel like you’re vulnerable like an open, bleeding wound to others, it’s part of what makes you human- the first part is letting others know what you’re going through so that they can help you. The second part is that despite our worst fears that we look silly or weak, I’d say 95% of the time, you just simply earn more respect for speaking up and being open in the first place.. it increases trust, and you are a leader in paving the way for others to see your imperfectness, so that they may allow themselves to become vulnerable too and share.
Yesterday, at girl’s group, I took out my inhaler and used it, then joked about gargling. All of them watched me, and asked me questions about it, especially the ones working in hospitals. I was feeling confident, or rather, content, and somehow that made it feel safe and okay to talk about my inhaler and not make me feel like I was isolating or making myself look like a sick person. And it felt good.
Ironically, letting go of my pride made me feel proud.