I don’t remember if I wrote about this before, but it’s my go-to story whenever a friend who’s having self-doubt or any other moments of apprehension talks to me. It’s a story I tell myself once in awhile to remind myself of my worth, even if I don’t always see it.
When I was younger, my best friend got me into mangas, and my favorite was always Fruits Basket. In one chapter, Kyo is this character who comes off angry but holds in a lot of pain and fear. Tohru is the girl who looks at him in thought, and ponders, “Hm, maybe it’s on his back.”
The way Tohru sees the world is that every individual is an onigiri, and each contains a special ingredient. However, the problem is that Kyo’s onigiri looks at everyone else’s, and is envious looking at the ingredients on their backs, whether it’s salmon, or tuna, or egg. He can’t see his own. He thinks he’s worth less because he can’t see his back.
Sometimes, pretty often actually, I find myself as Kyo, struggling to see what’s on my back. I know some of you are thinking “please, I know what my special ingredient, I’m made of PRIME RIB, wagyu beef yo.” And that’s great. But a lot of us spend a lot of times staring at all the other onigiris’ backs and admiring their special ingredient. So I’m here to tell you that you have something special on your back, and I see it. You are made of worth, you were created unique, and everyone around you can see it even if people might not go out of their way to tell you or admit it to you. I think we could help each other out by being the eyes for each other on what we can’t see.