Continuing onto the last post I wrote regarding my relationship with Christianity, which you can read here, I’m still pretty confused and seeking answers.
I’m really liking fellowship and still continuing to grow closer with everyone, and getting to genuinely know and care about people. However, aside from that and despite having many deep philosophical talks with individuals including the evangelist who is a cool guy, I’m still not sure I found any clear answers. I’ve gotten into a few sticky topics, most of which revolves around homosexuality. I’ve come to discover many of them don’t exactly support gayness, and that they don’t see it as anti anything, but rather that in very clear, literal terms, the bible has passages stating that it is an abomination to lay with another man. According to them, the individual is not a sin, but the act is, and we are to love them regardless and not judge them, because we all sin. The word “sin” still makes me cringe, not sure why.
Does a gay person really feel like they’re accepted though, even stated that way? Again, according to many people, homosexuality is a choice, something that people experimented with at some point in life and ended up thinking was for them.
But on the other hand, if it is not a choice but just an identity of who someone is, to be condemned for it as a sin is pretty frustrating, and since the majority are not gay, who are we to speak for that demographic? Just as if I as an Asian American am offended by the O’Reilly interview in Chinatown (ugh), who are all the white people in the comments section telling us to calm down and not be so serious??
One thing I’m confused about is when I’ve discussed the passage where God forces Abraham (I think?) to sacrifice his son to prove his love. When pushed to a corner, Christian friends usually fall back to “well that’s why it’s the Old Testament, the New Testament is more forgiving.” But, it’s the same God right? Unless whoever wrote the bible intended parts of it to be more focused on the overall message and moral, rather than interpreted literally word for word.
In fact, the parts about not laying with another man take place mostly in the Old Testament…
I’m still confused. But I think it’s really great opening up and sharing true fellowship and seeking the purpose of life.